Reality or Chocolate?

I had the chance to go through all the mail that my Father picked up for me while I was away. Bills, bills, bills, winner of a new car, bills...then, Reality. Reality, it even sounds harsh, don't you think. Is it just me or do you notice that you stop breathing for just a moment when it finally hits you? The enlarged font of black letters grouped together formed the words 'You're In!' (insert hysterical laughter throughout the following sentence) I received comfirmation that I am registered for the Chicago Marathon. Confirmation #275. What was I thinking? Was I thinking? Those were my first thoughts. But clarity came to me in the form of food. Any large dose of reality should always be softened with an offering of chocolate. For me it was Hershey bar. Guilt? Not on your life! That was a damn good piece of chocolate. My will to keep going was nourished shortly thereafter. I don't recommend this type of treatment for anyone else, but once I come down from the sugar high, the sedated disposition can handle pretty much anything.

That is, until reality hits me again. Like seven minutes ago. When I logged on to the members only section of the marathon website. Usually there is a lead-in, a directory or icon that eases you to the reality...say... like a course map! No, can't say that I was prepared for that. The red lines just seem to keep on going... excuse me.... I'm alright. Just exhibiting chocolate withdrawal is all. I know I can run the distance. Aren't I terrible? Any excuse to eat.

So, this week's lessons marathoners: Go ahead and lose your mind. Take a moment to scream, laugh hysterically, dance an irish jig. Whatever gets you over that hump we all know as "But"; "What if"; "Shoulda, woulda, coulda"; "What was I thinking?". The self-doubt quicksand can suck you in faster than the desert tray at your favorite restaurant. When you're finished shedding off the old you, look in the mirror and remind yourself that you deserve a better reality!

See you crazy people on Saturday. I'll bring the Chocolate!