Ego Monkey

Attention Egos: Stop Feeding Your Monkeys!!!

I realized last week that I still have monkeys on my back. When I first started blogging, I was afraid to tell people that I was planning on running a marathon because of what they might think. If I failed, I knew, but if I told people, then THEY would know. Anyhoo, I told people and I didn't fail. So now, since I have successfully planted myself back at square one, I must bare all to lighten my bourgening load.
Hi, I'm Michelle...and I am a self-sabotager. (I politely pause while you fill in the gap with the ever-popular response...and I continue.) Yes, I sabotage, relationships, friendships, new habits, old habits, diets and almost anything that would require a tenacious attitude. I, like many, am good for short burst of passion, then my subconscious kicks in. I have cut off friendships because if I get too close it makes it that much harder to leave later. No disappointments, no regrets. As far as the habits and diets go, I know I have tasted success, but I guess I never really nipped the root of the underlying problems to keep them from creeping up again.
I said all that to say this: The monkeys on our backs are like our bodies; they only know feast or famine. Its not good when we feed them, and it isn't good when we starve them, because then they consume all the time and energy from our egos. We need our egos to focus on the positive and the good. There is a reason why there is a sign at the zoo that says, 'Don't Feed the Monkeys'. If patrons feed them junk constantly, the trainers will never get them to eat the healthy stuff and the monkeys will become unhealthy.
I am sorry if this sounds preachy, but its my blog and I can rant and preach if I want to. (he-he)
If you are a self-sabotager, you're not alone. Its still early 2007, so there is time if you made a resolution. So, I plan to focus on other things like Mickeys and Goofeys and take away the time I spend feeding my Monkeys.

And one more thing - Remember: Monkey see, Monkey do. If you don't feed it, it won't feed on you.

Take care,
and thank you for your support.
-Your Monkey-loving, Goofey-as-hell marathoner.